the end is near! :D

It puzzles me that some people are not aware of their surroundings and how their speech and actions may affect others. noon-chi is a big plus :) I realize that I love doing anything academically related at home. Good music, piles of homework, cup of necessary writing tools..bring it on MAT program..can't wait to finish! Being by myself sometimes it the perfect remedy to a stressful week!

More than anything, I am excited to end these past years of blood, sweat, and tears in the MAT program.

blood from dirty children and endless paper cuts from prep in the wee hours of the morning
sweat from running after my cute, but dirty children
and tears from separating from my kids at the end of each year

my life revolves around these kids, but I wouldn't have it any other way. I love my job. I love teaching. I will never get another job unless it involves TEACHING + CHILDREN :D

Among the plethora of thoughts that invade my tiny mind, I've been holding onto this verse especially through this week

The Lord is my strength and my shield; in HIM my HEART TRUSTS, and I am helped; my heart exults, and with my song I give thanks to HIM. Psalm 28:7

I'm thankful for a father that loves me unconditionally. I still don't fully understand how someone can do this, but I just know he does.

1 week til graduation :) It's bittersweet. I'll never be in school again, but I know that I'll be missing sitting at Berkeley Place with Jenny and Katie :D I WON'T miss the many trees my professors and I have killed in this program. I'm torn on the all nighters Jenny and I pulled to get through the program. I won't miss crying in the living room wondering if we're going to make it through the program, but I'll miss going to 7-11 and getting chocolate covered espresso beans and nasty starbucks frapps to keep us awake.

If you're coming to graduation, I thank you in advance. It means the world because every time I thought of giving up from the madness that this program entails, you guys kept me going :D
DianeSKim, I know you don't read this, but you my friend have been one of the greatest encouragements a sista like me could have :D plus..I don't know anyone else who I can talk to about people like GB :D

Next week seems so far away, but I want to finish faithfully.

plowing onward!!!

Less

As of lately, thoughts of BBANG (bread) invade my mind the instant I wake up. I'm guessing that this is most likely the result of being physically ill and wanting something warm. Working with a kid with severe ADHD every week has definitely had its ups and downs and it's only shown me how impure my own heart is. More than looking out for his needs, I'm constantly sitting there wanting to bang my own head against the wall. A typical conversation goes like this, " Insert kid's name here, what is 1/2 + 1/2?" He proceeds to run around the classroom and as I utterly fail to catch him, he screeches, screams, and starts flailing his arms in every direction. There are very few moments when I work with this child where he obediently does what is asked and his motivation to learn is minimal to say the least. Yet, I've found an attachment to him because of the amount of time I spend with him every week. There are more times where he rejects me, throws objects of every shape and size, and has me chase him around which on a positive note gives me my daily dose of exercise. Everything in my flesh has me fighting to love him and there are days where I have to motivate myself through something like, "Yuna..just go and you can have chik fil a sweet tea after !" This entire year, I've been wanting to surrender my worries, but when it comes down to it, I still hold onto them and let my pride and desire to control every situation come in the way.

The point of this blog for me is to look back and see how God has been faithfully working in my life even in my unfaithfulness.

:) To my faithful two readers...thank you :)

On a completely random note...I've realized that it's futile asking people from church to play Bananagrams with me.. :( I think it's out of pity that they play. It's okay though. Online bananagrams, let's go! :)


23 Day Until Graduation ...If you love me, you will come...hahaha. JK....not really! One more: If you haven't replied, please do ASAP :)